the nightstand is a collection of reflections on being part of and leading a missional apprenticeship community
Being before Doing: Suffering and Knowing
“The suffering of ministry cannot be eliminated without eliminating the knowing. To be a pastor is to walk into the pain, not around it. To bear with people, not just teach them.”
Being Before Doing: Performance or Presence
“Presence—real presence—doesn’t allow for a work-based hiding. Presence requires me to show up as a person, not just a pastor. It requires vulnerability, attention, and a kind of pastoral courage that says: ‘I’m here with you. I see you. And I’m willing to let you see me too.’”
Being Before Doing: A Pastor with a People
“A pastor cannot be a pastor without a people… Vocation begins with people, jobs begin with a task. We’re tempted to believe our calling is about what we do for people, but so much of the pastor’s vocation is about what we do with people.”
Being Before Doing: The gift of presence
“I wasn’t being ‘useful’ in any measurable way… What I was doing—though I couldn’t have named it then—was pastoring. I was simply present with students, walking with them, praying with them, paying attention to what God might be doing in their lives.”